The new year is coming and it’s a good time to reset. It has been said that perseverance and mental toughness are the keys to success. This rings true, especially when it comes to achieving our fitness goals.

the love lost is found in the love I have. my precious baby boy, sent to me from God. my first born. time moves so fast and here we are. life is only beginning and I am new. the future is here and the past is gone. honestly, i’m thankful the future is here. the now was getting exhausting, all consuming and now it’s all a part of the backstory.

but this experience is all about me, nothing special to the rest of the world. people squat in fields everyday.

It has been a beautiful year. I’ve experienced so much pain and love at the same time. I am grateful for the opportunity to type these words. I could not understand the consequence of my own actions until I met disability. The disabling of your body when your mind is strong. I am faithful to the universe; to God, to whomever and whatever has blessed my path. I look death in the face and choose to live. I don’t even see u, sir.

ONE HELL OF A YEAR.

21:41/24:00

always been gripping. on to what i can’t be without. i love him. no man should you love more than yourself. but GOD. he is, is he.

TAKE everything…make it better. best not yet but everything else you take it away. what do you do with it? ball it up, save it for later when you need to use it. you take my good and bad. beep. beep. buzz. beep. the boss is here. gripping tight to me. Legends are tenacious. just don’t let go.

15:24/ 24:00

secrets turn into lies and that's not what this have ever been about. the more you tell the more they judge. wanting to live in your truths without meeting your master; it's a fantasy. You gotta live with your past in the future. Let em' kno this what it look like on the way up! "To Glory."

In order to love you gotta tell em' what and who they loving....right? Don't try and play me being all secretive and what not. 

22:07/24:00

Sometimes an escape is good. Just a moment to be in a space you're all too familiar with but hidden among the crowd. People walking, watching and existing. Breathing in the freshness of the air and the spirit of a place you've been before...somehow escaping from the realities of responsibility. Stay a little while, vacation where you are. Butterflies are present, here you have a chance to see them emerge.

23:47/24:00

the winter is fast approaching. in the darkness we always seem to find our way home. a new home. clean slate to paint a picture of love, peace and prosperity. in this season my mind leads me to take inventory of my life. To take measurement of what I have, maybe i've looked past some of my blessings. maybe i've taken some things for granted and maybe i've been so blessed that i hadn't stop to think about how good God is. 

20:45/24:00

grateful for so much time. it's not enough, wanting more and desiring it to be spent with you. i am experiencing deeper connections with the ones close to me. letting myself feel and not react...so much time, it's not enough. will it ever be? eternity, i spend it with you, free. to love. to be loved. 

to be love. in time.

9:19/24:00

In the beginning, I created the heavens and the earth.

Now, the earth was formless and empty. Darkness was over the surface of the deep. My spirit was hovering over the waters. And I said, let there be light!

-gifts for you, my love.

22:28/24:00

What do you dream about? What life could you imagine if you were truly free? It's a fine time to start turning our dreams into reality....In honor of the great Martin Luther King Jr, dream a little dream tonight. "Black is beautiful." 

21:39/24:00

There is something to be said about a familiar unit. We're born with liabilities. We don't come to this world with the ability to care for ourselves. We are indebted to this earth and our family. We can turn our liabilities into strong assets by working together as we move through life. Working and sharing with family is a beautiful sight. I'm so grateful I get to witness the beauty.

11:21/24:00

00:53/24:00

We’re taught to hide our pain. They say suffering is a part of life and we’ve got to learn to deal. Happiness feels so good and pain is just the opposite. It must be the work of the devil and I’m convinced it’s an unnecessary feeling. Would you like sunshine with your rain just like cheese on your grits? Naw, not really. I’ll keep hiding behind my poker face. I uploaded it on the net.

22:34/24:00

Waiting and wanting…not wanting to wait. Patience developed with time waiting. I’m working on my virtues and I don’t want to tell you all I’m waiting on. I just want peace after all this waiting. I pray your smile brings me much happiness after the patience I’ve had with you. You could stand to use some of your own. 

23:39/24:00

Meaningful experiences. Time filled with so much joy. I am looking at you…smiling. Thankful to have known you and grateful that our paths crossed. I’ll see you soon. Time is moving on and I don’t want to get stuck in yesterday. Tomorrow is here. I look forward to greeting you.

19:23/24:00

This is probably the lowest point of the emotional rollercoaster. You’re up and then down again. This is too deep. Self medicate, erasing all the pain. Keeping it together, all out of my element. WHO AM I? I see your big brown eyes, staring up at me. I’ll slow down this ride for you, only you…so what AM I? A servant, sacrificial. I love you. I finally understand, for you I will pick up the pieces. I've been painting you the most beautiful picture. Colors fill the page.

22:15/24:00

TIME. Let's break everything down to hours...minutes..

Habits are hard to break. Writing it all down, reading it later...accepting who you were and begin to understand your deepest emotions...

Does time ever erase emotions? It feels like time keeps them alive. How come time doesn't erase all our those uncomfortable feelings?